Sunday, August 19, 2007

已三星期沒打排球了,今個星期打了兩天,很差,攰到癲咗,又無狀態,根本過不了自己。打完後,自己一個人搭小巴由荃灣去銅鑼灣,也自己一個人入到去合發成十二點幾先食晚餐。五十八蚊加兩蚊轉凍檸茶埋單,然後去咗7-11買了個綠茶雪糕獎勵自己,tum自己開心。成晚都唔想講嘢,雙腿累得發了麻,邊吃着雪糕,邊慢慢走去的士站打的,細味着一個無味的週末晚上,我心知我一日唔甘心,我一日都會被自己卡輪,我口化心不化,也不憤。 我很討厭星期六晚自己一個人。

〈一一如一〉

白馬配王子,白雪跟公主,
南瓜車與琉璃鞋,
什麽事物都一雙跟一對,
彷似很匹配,彷似很對味。
他們說:這叫完整。
他們真的這樣說。

一, 不如一,不如一一如一,
不如對倒童話,
不如替自己說些亮話,
與其靠別人的嘴巴,
不如將終生押注於這單數吧。
將近十年也買雙開單,
這駭人奇蹟,也嚇跑了莊家。

一, 不如一,不如一一如一,
原來老師已在首課教曉我們,
這愛情的不二發門,
唸唸練習薄後的九因歌,
指紋蓋紙紋,憐惜苦海孤雛。

一, 不離二,不離三,更不離四,
口說不離不棄,
八字卻不離遭捨棄,
所以,
一, 不離二,不離三,也不離四。
不三,
不四。

每當我獨自坐在茶餐廳吃飯時,
面對着刀叉,面對着空椅,
也想起世界的獨一無二。
抽煙時,每次也是點着一支,
也沒人可同時哼着兩首歌兒。
一道大門只得一條門匙,
世界不是每樣事物也會開雙。

右手拿起刀,左手拿着叉子,
每當一個人時,也記着九因歌詞,
和自己匹配,跟自己對味,
催眠自己說:這叫完整。
我真的這樣說。

5 comments:

柯德莉audreyttt said...

not only sat... i hate fri n sat alone... this is audrey

Him Him said...

heh I missed the time being alone, it is soooo enjoyable.

km911 said...

next time ur alone. call me.
i know sometimes when ur alone, u hate being alone, but u don't want any company either, but know this, "you will never be alone" i hate company when i feel lonely, but it's glad to know that i'm not alone... daam

Unknown said...

寫得好好啊

Unknown said...

so much tt i wanna say about this thing:
i hate wkend loneliness. my cellfone always keep silent for whole day long on sunday. sometimes i hv to check if it's really working indeed.
i hate socalled romance w/ a wrong guy. i think it's my ego. i'd rather be alone than to hv a nut sitting nix to me. loneliness can still be splendid but a shitty affair juz spoils everything. tt's y i'm alone n my dear frds keep urging me to date someone. i almost wanna tell them 2 is not necessarily better than 1, wat's wrong w/ me??
yet nich, i know how u feel abt tt lonesome feeling. whenever i hv tt feeling, i sing a song of chan yee ching to myself, it's called 'too much' (sorry i dunno chin typing) it's my theme song